Prince Harry and Meghan, Duchess of Sussex sat down with Oprah Winfrey for an interview full of bombshells for the royal family. Over the course of the two hour interview, the couple shared how they were left alone to fend off racist abuse and their own troubled mental health, forcing them into silence and ultimately leaving them with no option but to leave.

Meghan said she was so isolated and lonely while working as a royal that she thought about suicide, telling Winfrey she “just didn’t want to be alive anymore.” The couple were intensely critical of the way the institution treated them, and Meghan revealed that there were concerns about baby Archie’s skin-tone being too dark.

Harry meanwhile admitted his relationships with his father and heir to the throne, Prince Charles, and his brother, Prince William, have come under severe strain in recent years.